Intervention

This is my handmade notice board in front of my study desk!
Homemade as in made from shoe box and wrapping paper and double taped to the wall.
Notice all the SELF MOTIVATION? Hee hee.

Was thinking what an unproductive yet fun week-long holidays I just had.

Ate a lot of good food in Kuching with friends and family! Went to Carvery for buffet, to Riverside Majestic for the Japanese Buffet, Bing! for their drinks and amazing brownies, 175º Cafe for the good food and fish spa. Then of course also ate incredible amounts of laksa and kolo mee from the local coffeeshops around town!

Also spent most of the time bumming at home. I watched 3 Seasons of Spongebob, 2 Seasons of Gundam 00. Spongebob has really mature jokes and Im not sure how it actually appeals to the younger demographic. Have you heard Squidward talking? His English is seriously keng lor. And now I know why Gundam is so popular- its a really good anime series that deals with real life issues like war ethics, morality, peace and justice, but sugar coated with fighting robots!

I also studied half a chapter of Physics applications in 1.5 WEEKS.

So basically EPIC FAIL at studying this holidays. =( I feel quite guilty.

Since A2 is in less than 30 DAYS and my lecturers have not completed the syllabus yet, I will now take the liberty of telling you that I wont be online very much for the next month. I am going to be studying like crazy. Seriously. I am going to live breathe and eat Physics, Bio and Chem until I feel sufficiently brave enough to risk getting addicted to Facebook again.

STUDY ON! YAY!

Creation

I bought Play-Doh two weeks ago on a whim.

I picked a fight with Queenie.

Who would make a better God, Daniel or Queenie.

"By mere fart, whole universes are born in my name. The Big Bang!" I say. "My spit would shape the galaxies, my burp breathing life to the stars."

Queenie laughs in contempt.

"Hah! Farting? What flatulent ingenious," she cries! "Why, dead cells which fall off my skin sparks off new universes. A short walk to the toilet would birth a thousand and one universes!"

And Daniel pauses. Batters eyelids. And says:

"That's vegetative propagation."

Today is Merdeka

It is the 31st of August, Independence Day for Malaysia.


I walk down the corridor of my college. My friend is beside me.

"I love Malaysia," I say. "I wish there could be true racial unity. It'll be awesome."

"Why so patriotic," my friend sneers, and the contempt in his voice makes me cringe. "You Sabahan and Sarawakians are unbelievable. You obviously haven't lived in West Malaysia long enough."

"Huh?"

"Just because Sabah and Sarawak is so mixed, with everyone having two or three bloods at once, its not the same here okay." He explains. "Its damn different here. You cant look at them without thinking, 'You took MY scholarship', or 'The Government gave you everything, EVERYTHING, and what did you do with it?'".

He sums it up, " Why should we minority step up and initiate racial unity when they are the majority and they still gang up against us? Whats the use?" Then he quickly adds, "You cant help being racist here, not with the way things are."

I remain quiet. Deep down inside, I know I love Malaysia, through all the political faults, the skepticism of racial unity, the finger pointing and the distractions. Perhaps I am being too noble, too disillusioned, too proud or brainwashed.

Or perhaps not. I love my country, do you?

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But suppose God is black? What if we go to Heaven and we, all our lives, have treated the Negro as an inferior, and God is there, and we look up and He is not white? What then is our response? -Robert F Kennedy

What I've Learnt

This was me leading worship in 2006

We had CF meeting just now which lasted for almost two hours. There were lots of planning and discussion about the CF, juniors and life in general. We planned the next two months ahead with super extra fun activities already and I'm suppose to invite Uncle Chan to speak on passion, I hope he'll be free on that day!

Then suddenly Susu asked us, "What did you learn this year as a committee member in CF?"

And I was stunned. I kept thinking and thinking, wondering- What lessons have I learnt? Was there anything I sacrificed? How have I grown spiritually, intellectually, emotionally as a Christian? Was there anything, even ONE thing, that I learnt as a Vice President for CF?

And again, I was stunned.

The answers were slow to come, but they came eventually. I'll share it one day!

This was me leading worship in 2008

My year here in KL has been a spiritual roller coaster- a series of adrenaline injections one after another, with varying degrees of intensity and time frames. In between these highs would be periods of extreme lows. I must have some form of spiritual-bi-polar disorder!

There is always that ounce of regret I will feel, because I know I could have done so much more for CF. Sometimes I wonder, why didn't I give my ALL when there was SO MUCH to give? Sometimes I did, and the heart was there, but...

But I gave my part, and Im thankful to God for that.

To all my juniors, I hope you don't ever regret like I did! If you want to be in the CF committee, GIVE YOUR BEST AND ALL! Don't do something half-heartedly and finally struggle in the end to give an answer to a simple question like "What have you learnt?".

Know your priorities, know your foundation, and know your passion.